I am feeling REALLY happy with myself today! For the past 2 days I have eaten "perfectly".....no naughty snacks at all.....and I have been very good with my exercise. I now see the trainer on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Fridays and I do a "Body Attack" class on Wednesdays. If I like, I can do no exercise Sat, Sun and Mon as 4 sessions is still good. Or I can add in an extra one during those 3 days. My arms and my bum are aching today from doing back-to-back sessions with him last night and this morning.
He also recommended that I go off the pill as he thinks this could be causing me to hold weight. I have been on the pill since I was about 16 (14 years at least) so I really don't know what my "natural" adult body looks like....That is, without the hormones. So, I have "kicked" the pill and J and I will now resort to condoms I guess. Gees I hate them but I am willing to give anything a try to get good results. At the moment I only get my periods 3-4 times a year because I keep cycling the active pills so I am NOT looking forward to regular periods at all. After 14 years I dare say they won't be too regular anyway! I am not meant to be on the pill anyway because I suffer from "visual aura migraines" (migraines that affect my vision) and taking the combined pill when you suffer from these increases your risk of stroke. The trainer didn't tell me this....I already knew this.
I can notice a small difference in my stomach. I think it has deflated a bit, which is awesome! Much more deflation is required though!!! A funny thing is that when I am being healthy J and I get on much better. Probably the exercise increases my "happy chemicals" or something! There is no doubt about it, exercise IS a great thing even though it is such a bitch to do most of the time!
My dog, Jack, is sick again! This time I believe he has "Kennel cough" which is a really bad thing. He has been vaccinated for this so he won't get really sick like non-vaccinated dogs do but I feel really sorry for the poor thing. He is so sad and walks around with his tail between his legs. I got woken up at 3am today by him coughing really hard. It sounds as though he is trying really hard to cough up phlegm or something and his whole chest area contracts while he does it. I will take him to the vet tonight to make sure he will be OK. It is my silly fault he has this....The dog park we always go to has had a sign up on the gate the last few days warning that Kennel Cough is present. I stupidly thought "How can it possibly just hang around in a park? He will be OK". I am a bad dog mother. Once again, Max is fine. I think his fat protects him from everything and he will live to 100!! I really worry about Jack and get petrified he will die young. I would need to go into a psychiatric hospital if he died....I could not cope!
On a more positive note, I am hanging out for this long weekend. I am not doing much at all but just looking forward to an extra day of not being at work. It has been pretty quiet at work and it has been so hard to try and stay busy....or at least "look" like I am busy! I hope I can stay pretty much on track with my eating over the weekend. I should plan some BBQ dinners or something (meat and salad) so I know what is on the menu. Tonight I am having homemade sushi for dinner and I can't wait....It is sooooooo yum and homemade means there is no mayonnaise in the rolls. I hate when sushi places put mayo in there.....It is so disgusting!!!
My thought of the day is: "You are not doing this to look slim....You are doing this because none of your winter clothes fit you. For this reason, you must succeed within the next few months".
This is the truth. My summer clothes are pretty much OK because they are all dresses and flowy skirts but my winter pants, jeans and coats do not fit and I really like my clothes so I don't want to buy new stuff.
Have a great long weekend everybody and "Happy Australia Day"!!
Miss Pinky
Friday 25 January 2008
Tuesday 22 January 2008
Tuesday TidBit
Well I personally thought that my last post was really funny! I thought people would get a good laugh out of it. I guess I won't be giving up my day job to be a comedian any time soon!!! Thanks for all your comments on my last post....I know that self-hating is terrible and just encourages bad things to come into my life. I need to stop putting myself down all the time!!!
I have always wondered if I would feel better about myself if I had a partner that I felt completely loved me, no matter what I looked like. I have always felt that J feels disgusted by me and wishes so badly that I was slim. I think the reason for this is that J always goes to the Gym and looks after his body whereas I treat mine more like a "temple of doom" than a temple! Funny thing is that J sent me this email after reading my last blog post.....
What is wrong with you???
You are turning into a psycho. You are putting unnecessary pressure on your self and turning something that could be easy for you into something horrible.
So what you eat some bad things, that is the reason you are doing exercise so you can eat some bad stuff and not worry about it. Focus not on what you eat but on burning it off. Big deal we had pizza last night pizza surprisingly is not that bad, it had minimal cheese on it and meat...
I am beginning to think you need more then a PT you might need a doctor to deal with you mental issues..
Stop placing unnecessary pressure on your self and try and assert some self control with out being a Nazi about it. If you want bad things look for bad things that are good . Its not that hard... STOP BEING SILLY THINGS ARE NOT THAT BAD.
This made me really think for the first time "perhaps he is not as obsessed with my weight as I am". I actually felt really liberated by this email....even if he was calling me a psycho!!!! I realised that how I see myself may not be reality. Perhaps every person is NOT staring at me when I walk down the street thinking "You fatty". Perhaps I do not stand out as "the fat person". Perhaps nobody is looking at me when I eat in a food court. (I will leave the examples here or you will see I am truly a psycho....ha ha ha!!!)
So now I shall post some good things I have been doing.....All part of my "stop self-hating" plan...
I have now had 3 personal training sessions. The first two were not really hard but this morning my trainer absolutely CANED me!!! I was swearing and everything!! I am feeling OK now though. I have decided to "up" my sessions from 2 per week to 3 per week. This will force me to do at least 3 exercise sessions a week and this will be sufficient even if I don't manage to do anything else. I would love to do 5 exercise sessions a week but 3 is better than none. I am only planning on seeing him for about 3 months so I need to do all I can to get results!!!
Food is better than it has been but still not great. For breakfast I have been having a mango, a tub of yoghurt and 1/2 cup skim milk blended with heaps of ice....really yummy. Lunch the last 2 days has been turkish bread toasted with ham, swiss cheese, tomato and avocado. If I swap the turkish for a brown roll and swap the cheese for weight watchers cheese this will then be OK. Still having a few biscuits after work, which I need to stop and still having icecream after dinner but only a small bowl now. Dinner is always pretty good. A few minor changes to the food and I should be OK. I could never go on really low calorie diets or no carb diets as I would last about 5 minutes.
My weight is up to it's highest point but I am trying to focus on the positives....That I have the trainer now and I work very hard when I am with him. I am trying to believe that it will all be OK. A small bit of afternoon/evening willpower over the food and I will get there!
On a non-diet related matter, I have been invited to a Cypriot (hope the spelling is right) wedding at the end of Feb. This is a guy who lives down the road from us but we are not really close to. I have never even met his fiance as J and I were "having a break" when the engagement party was on so I didn't go. Anyway, I have also received an invitation to her "Bridal Shower" a few weeks before the wedding. I don't want to go as I SERIOUSLY will not know one person!! I have met the groom's mother once but that is it!! My question is, do I still buy her a gift for her bridal shower even if I don't go? I am not too "up to speed" with these type of things. I know for an Aussie wedding you would get a gift if you were good friends with them, even if you didn't go but I don't know this girl at all! I am not a tightarse....Just want to make sure I do the right thing. I no longer go to things I don't want to......I decided this about a year ago as I used to spend all my time trying to get out of things so now I just say "no" upfront. I will attend the wedding though because J will be there.
Till Next time....
Miss Pinky
I have always wondered if I would feel better about myself if I had a partner that I felt completely loved me, no matter what I looked like. I have always felt that J feels disgusted by me and wishes so badly that I was slim. I think the reason for this is that J always goes to the Gym and looks after his body whereas I treat mine more like a "temple of doom" than a temple! Funny thing is that J sent me this email after reading my last blog post.....
What is wrong with you???
You are turning into a psycho. You are putting unnecessary pressure on your self and turning something that could be easy for you into something horrible.
So what you eat some bad things, that is the reason you are doing exercise so you can eat some bad stuff and not worry about it. Focus not on what you eat but on burning it off. Big deal we had pizza last night pizza surprisingly is not that bad, it had minimal cheese on it and meat...
I am beginning to think you need more then a PT you might need a doctor to deal with you mental issues..
Stop placing unnecessary pressure on your self and try and assert some self control with out being a Nazi about it. If you want bad things look for bad things that are good . Its not that hard... STOP BEING SILLY THINGS ARE NOT THAT BAD.
This made me really think for the first time "perhaps he is not as obsessed with my weight as I am". I actually felt really liberated by this email....even if he was calling me a psycho!!!! I realised that how I see myself may not be reality. Perhaps every person is NOT staring at me when I walk down the street thinking "You fatty". Perhaps I do not stand out as "the fat person". Perhaps nobody is looking at me when I eat in a food court. (I will leave the examples here or you will see I am truly a psycho....ha ha ha!!!)
So now I shall post some good things I have been doing.....All part of my "stop self-hating" plan...
I have now had 3 personal training sessions. The first two were not really hard but this morning my trainer absolutely CANED me!!! I was swearing and everything!! I am feeling OK now though. I have decided to "up" my sessions from 2 per week to 3 per week. This will force me to do at least 3 exercise sessions a week and this will be sufficient even if I don't manage to do anything else. I would love to do 5 exercise sessions a week but 3 is better than none. I am only planning on seeing him for about 3 months so I need to do all I can to get results!!!
Food is better than it has been but still not great. For breakfast I have been having a mango, a tub of yoghurt and 1/2 cup skim milk blended with heaps of ice....really yummy. Lunch the last 2 days has been turkish bread toasted with ham, swiss cheese, tomato and avocado. If I swap the turkish for a brown roll and swap the cheese for weight watchers cheese this will then be OK. Still having a few biscuits after work, which I need to stop and still having icecream after dinner but only a small bowl now. Dinner is always pretty good. A few minor changes to the food and I should be OK. I could never go on really low calorie diets or no carb diets as I would last about 5 minutes.
My weight is up to it's highest point but I am trying to focus on the positives....That I have the trainer now and I work very hard when I am with him. I am trying to believe that it will all be OK. A small bit of afternoon/evening willpower over the food and I will get there!
On a non-diet related matter, I have been invited to a Cypriot (hope the spelling is right) wedding at the end of Feb. This is a guy who lives down the road from us but we are not really close to. I have never even met his fiance as J and I were "having a break" when the engagement party was on so I didn't go. Anyway, I have also received an invitation to her "Bridal Shower" a few weeks before the wedding. I don't want to go as I SERIOUSLY will not know one person!! I have met the groom's mother once but that is it!! My question is, do I still buy her a gift for her bridal shower even if I don't go? I am not too "up to speed" with these type of things. I know for an Aussie wedding you would get a gift if you were good friends with them, even if you didn't go but I don't know this girl at all! I am not a tightarse....Just want to make sure I do the right thing. I no longer go to things I don't want to......I decided this about a year ago as I used to spend all my time trying to get out of things so now I just say "no" upfront. I will attend the wedding though because J will be there.
Till Next time....
Miss Pinky
Thursday 17 January 2008
Fat, fat, fat!!!!!!
After my semi-bagging of the personal trainer that he didn’t work me hard enough, etc…..I received my “karma” yesterday in the form of an aching body that felt like I had been hit by a train. Every part of me ached, even my armpits!!! Today I am feeling a bit better but still a little tender. I have another session with him tonight and I should be OK. Even if I am not I will still try my hardest because I hate showing any signs of weakness!!! J is considering joining me on my PT sessions and I have spoken to my PT about this. He thinks that this might not work because J wants to build muscle and I want to lose fat. Maybe J will just agree to do whatever I am doing, although with heavier weights, etc. We will sort this out in the next few days. It is not that much more money for J to be there too, so this isn’t really an issue.
My food has been bad, bad, bad and I am in severe self-hating mode. Yesterday I had McDonald’s for lunch, half a bag of fantail lollies for a “snack” and pizza, garlic bread and an Oreo McFlurry for dinner!!!!! I absolutely disgust myself but can’t seem to stop this self-sabotage!!! I am an animal!!! (No…..this is slack to animals).
Speaking of animals, my dog, Jack, was really sick on Tuesday night, throwing up everywhere. I didn’t get any sleep at all. Thank God he is better now. I was so worried about him but I wanted to wait and see how he was by last night before taking him to the Vet. By about 4pm he was much, much better. I am not sure why he was sick but I assume he ate something dodgy in the backyard. The other dog, Max, was fine.
So I came to some realisations yesterday, which I would like to share. This section will be entitled “You know things have gotten out of hand when”…..
(1) You do not consume one bit of water in a full day. This was me yesterday. First time in about 3 years with ZERO water. I replaced healthy water with chemically laden Coke Zero and fat, fat, Dare coffee milk.
(2) You have to go home from work at lunch time because the pants you wore to work are too tight and you need to change into a loose skirt that does not hug your fat. Once again, this was me yesterday.
(3) You have to go to a different store in the afternoon to get your bag of FAT lollies, even though there is another store that is more convenient. Reason is that you are ashamed to go to your usual store because the lady would remember you getting your FAT Dare coffee milk that very morning. Yep….me again!
(4) You smuggle your bag of lollies into the office so nobody can see how FAT you are and you then carefully eat them all afternoon, hoping nobody can see you or hear the wrappers being opened. Hippo me once more.
(5) You put your McDonald’s bag from lunch into the outside bin so your boyfriend does not know how FAT you are. Funny thing is, he is not blind so I think he knows I am FAT anyway!!! (Note: He found it anyway when he took the garbage out!)
(6) You have to put talcum powder in between your thighs when you wear a skirt on a hot day to stop the “fat man rash” from coming. Yes, I make me sick!!!
(7) You are sitting in front of the TV in the afternoon with a full packet of water crackers and a jar of jam and you dip the whole packet of crackers into the jam and then eat it. Note to self: Jam IS NOT a dip Fatso!!!!!
(8) You hang around the house covered in a sarong because nothing else fits you that is comfortable anymore.
(9) When you shower you try not to look down because the sight of your lard will scare you and make you sick. It is rather difficult to shower without looking down!
(10) You pretend you feel sick so you can convince your boyfriend to have takeaway for dinner. You are not sick at all, you just want the FAT food rather than healthy steak and salad. Boyfriend must think “I would feel sick too if I ate what you did!”. He doesn’t say this out loud though because Fatso may sit on him and he will die.
Reading this back, it is rather funny but I am laughing AT me, not WITH me. This is a hard reality check for you, you absolute pig! Things MUST change and they must change NOW!!!!!!
Well, at least after we have cake at work this afternoon for someone’s birthday!!! Some pigs just never change!! J
(I am aware this is a really negative post towards myself but this is the way I need to be to generate some much needed change)
Miss Pinky
My food has been bad, bad, bad and I am in severe self-hating mode. Yesterday I had McDonald’s for lunch, half a bag of fantail lollies for a “snack” and pizza, garlic bread and an Oreo McFlurry for dinner!!!!! I absolutely disgust myself but can’t seem to stop this self-sabotage!!! I am an animal!!! (No…..this is slack to animals).
Speaking of animals, my dog, Jack, was really sick on Tuesday night, throwing up everywhere. I didn’t get any sleep at all. Thank God he is better now. I was so worried about him but I wanted to wait and see how he was by last night before taking him to the Vet. By about 4pm he was much, much better. I am not sure why he was sick but I assume he ate something dodgy in the backyard. The other dog, Max, was fine.
So I came to some realisations yesterday, which I would like to share. This section will be entitled “You know things have gotten out of hand when”…..
(1) You do not consume one bit of water in a full day. This was me yesterday. First time in about 3 years with ZERO water. I replaced healthy water with chemically laden Coke Zero and fat, fat, Dare coffee milk.
(2) You have to go home from work at lunch time because the pants you wore to work are too tight and you need to change into a loose skirt that does not hug your fat. Once again, this was me yesterday.
(3) You have to go to a different store in the afternoon to get your bag of FAT lollies, even though there is another store that is more convenient. Reason is that you are ashamed to go to your usual store because the lady would remember you getting your FAT Dare coffee milk that very morning. Yep….me again!
(4) You smuggle your bag of lollies into the office so nobody can see how FAT you are and you then carefully eat them all afternoon, hoping nobody can see you or hear the wrappers being opened. Hippo me once more.
(5) You put your McDonald’s bag from lunch into the outside bin so your boyfriend does not know how FAT you are. Funny thing is, he is not blind so I think he knows I am FAT anyway!!! (Note: He found it anyway when he took the garbage out!)
(6) You have to put talcum powder in between your thighs when you wear a skirt on a hot day to stop the “fat man rash” from coming. Yes, I make me sick!!!
(7) You are sitting in front of the TV in the afternoon with a full packet of water crackers and a jar of jam and you dip the whole packet of crackers into the jam and then eat it. Note to self: Jam IS NOT a dip Fatso!!!!!
(8) You hang around the house covered in a sarong because nothing else fits you that is comfortable anymore.
(9) When you shower you try not to look down because the sight of your lard will scare you and make you sick. It is rather difficult to shower without looking down!
(10) You pretend you feel sick so you can convince your boyfriend to have takeaway for dinner. You are not sick at all, you just want the FAT food rather than healthy steak and salad. Boyfriend must think “I would feel sick too if I ate what you did!”. He doesn’t say this out loud though because Fatso may sit on him and he will die.
Reading this back, it is rather funny but I am laughing AT me, not WITH me. This is a hard reality check for you, you absolute pig! Things MUST change and they must change NOW!!!!!!
Well, at least after we have cake at work this afternoon for someone’s birthday!!! Some pigs just never change!! J
(I am aware this is a really negative post towards myself but this is the way I need to be to generate some much needed change)
Miss Pinky
Tuesday 15 January 2008
Bored To Bits!
(Once again I can't work out how to put words near the pics! Dog on floor is Max and dog on bed is Jack)
Far out…..I am soooooo bored at work it is just killing me!!! I have to wait for this guy at my work to do something before I am able to complete my work and he hasn’t done his “thing” so far this week so I am just sitting here trying to look busy while the paperwork piles up on my desk!!! This means that I am bored now and later in the week I will be really busy….Thanks heaps work guy!!! I can’t actually say anything because he is just covering the person’s job who normally does it for a couple of days.
I had my first personal training session this morning. It went OK I guess but I can’t feel anything in my muscles and the stuff we did was a bit basic I think. I ran for 20 minutes on the treadmill before having my 30 minute session so, all up, I did 50 minutes of exercise. Better than laying in bed I think! I am wondering if half an hour sessions are too short?? It seemed that as soon as it had started the half hour was up. I should really give it a few sessions before I pass judgement…..picky old cow that I am! The honest truth is probably that I don’t want to have to exercise….ha ha ha!!!
Food-wise I have been a little all over the shop…..Some things good, some not so good. I have to remain positive that one day I will strike some sort of balance between being healthy and treating myself.
I am going to the movies tonight. I never, ever go out anywhere during the week and I made a sort of “resolution” this year to try and do small things during the week to make the working week less painful for me. J and I are having some sushi for dinner and then watching I Am Legend. I don’t know what it is like but tickets are cheap on Tuesdays and at least it will get me out of the house. I hope my dogs don’t get upset when we are gone….Yes, this is how obsessed I am with my dogs!!! I hate leaving them alone at any time during the night but especially on week days when they have been alone all day anyway. My dogs are way too spoilt! I even slept top-to-tail in the bed with J last night (wrong way around) so a dog could have my pillow to sleep on at the top of the bed. Typing these words I realise I have mental issues!!!
I had my first personal training session this morning. It went OK I guess but I can’t feel anything in my muscles and the stuff we did was a bit basic I think. I ran for 20 minutes on the treadmill before having my 30 minute session so, all up, I did 50 minutes of exercise. Better than laying in bed I think! I am wondering if half an hour sessions are too short?? It seemed that as soon as it had started the half hour was up. I should really give it a few sessions before I pass judgement…..picky old cow that I am! The honest truth is probably that I don’t want to have to exercise….ha ha ha!!!
Food-wise I have been a little all over the shop…..Some things good, some not so good. I have to remain positive that one day I will strike some sort of balance between being healthy and treating myself.
I am going to the movies tonight. I never, ever go out anywhere during the week and I made a sort of “resolution” this year to try and do small things during the week to make the working week less painful for me. J and I are having some sushi for dinner and then watching I Am Legend. I don’t know what it is like but tickets are cheap on Tuesdays and at least it will get me out of the house. I hope my dogs don’t get upset when we are gone….Yes, this is how obsessed I am with my dogs!!! I hate leaving them alone at any time during the night but especially on week days when they have been alone all day anyway. My dogs are way too spoilt! I even slept top-to-tail in the bed with J last night (wrong way around) so a dog could have my pillow to sleep on at the top of the bed. Typing these words I realise I have mental issues!!!
I am trying to work out what to get J for Valentine’s day?? I know it is a month away but I get paid on the 15th of each month so I need to get his present with this pay. I was going to get him some new runners but he went into a running shop on the weekend and told me he is buying himself a new pair this week. It is so funny because every time I decide to buy him something, he buys it…..or I buy him something and then he tells me he wants to buy it and I have to tell him I already have it and ruin the surprise!! He really has everything so I find it very hard to buy for him. I think we have decided to go to the “Meat and Wine Co” in Darling Harbour for dinner on Valentine’s night. It is a really yummy restaurant….Probably not one for vegetarians!!
Miss Pinky….aka Miss “Piggy”!!!!!
Miss Pinky….aka Miss “Piggy”!!!!!
Monday 14 January 2008
Back to the Grind
Monday again.....Yuck! I really miss the RDO's I used to get at my old work. It meant that I had something small to look forward to each month. Now it is simply 5 days each week, without a break. I guess I need to stop complaining because I have at least 30 years till retirement so I better get used to it. 30 years......330 months of working......7200 days.......57600 hours......I bet any 30-somethings reading this are in a really good frame of mind now!!! Sorry!!!
Anyway, my weekend was pretty good. On Saturday I went and got my glasses adjusted because they kept falling down my nose and were driving me crazy. Now they sit properly but my neck still aches when I wear them. I hope I can get used to them soon. I haven't had my usual afternoon headache so that is all good. Then I went and signed up for "3" wireless internet. It is really awesome....very quick to download.....and only costs $14.50 per month for 1GB. I am really happy with it and now I don't have cords all over the house! I spent the rest of Saturday sunbaking in the backyard, grocery shopping, etc.
Yesterday I went to the beach for a while and then had some lunch in the Mall and looked around the shops. I bought the same dress J got me for Xmas but in a different colour for less than half the price he paid....He is spewing!!! I always tend to buy the same things in different colours if I like them.
I did no exercise over the weekend because I woke up pretty late both days and, also, I had already completed 5 sessions during the week, which I thought would be sufficient. I will do some aerobics this afternoon and tomorrow morning I have my first personal training session. To be totally honest, I wish I hadn't organised this now because I don't want to pay the $425 but I feel obliged because I have booked it. If I cancelled, I would never go back to the Gym again just in case I saw the PT. This is just the way I am....rather weak and petrified of confrontation or people thinking badly of me. I guess any normal person would just cancel and not give it a second thought but I am far from "normal"! Perhaps this will force me to be more healthy as I know I am paying money to get results. Maybe it is just the lazy part of me that wants to cancel!
Food-wise I did OK over the weekend....Mostly I ate fairly healthily but I did have Thai food on Saturday night and I had an icecream and some lollies yesterday. All in all it is better than I would usually do on a weekend. I weigh about 1.2kgs less than last Monday, so at least somehing is shifting.....even if I am not being perfect.
I watched this TV show last night about celebrities getting their "body back" after having babies. Man....I can't believe the lengths these people go to to lose weight! Although I think the extreme measures are really bad for you (soup diets, etc) I am envious of their willpower and dedication. They are just so tiny!!!!
Anyway, back to the "grind" for me.....
Miss Pinky
Anyway, my weekend was pretty good. On Saturday I went and got my glasses adjusted because they kept falling down my nose and were driving me crazy. Now they sit properly but my neck still aches when I wear them. I hope I can get used to them soon. I haven't had my usual afternoon headache so that is all good. Then I went and signed up for "3" wireless internet. It is really awesome....very quick to download.....and only costs $14.50 per month for 1GB. I am really happy with it and now I don't have cords all over the house! I spent the rest of Saturday sunbaking in the backyard, grocery shopping, etc.
Yesterday I went to the beach for a while and then had some lunch in the Mall and looked around the shops. I bought the same dress J got me for Xmas but in a different colour for less than half the price he paid....He is spewing!!! I always tend to buy the same things in different colours if I like them.
I did no exercise over the weekend because I woke up pretty late both days and, also, I had already completed 5 sessions during the week, which I thought would be sufficient. I will do some aerobics this afternoon and tomorrow morning I have my first personal training session. To be totally honest, I wish I hadn't organised this now because I don't want to pay the $425 but I feel obliged because I have booked it. If I cancelled, I would never go back to the Gym again just in case I saw the PT. This is just the way I am....rather weak and petrified of confrontation or people thinking badly of me. I guess any normal person would just cancel and not give it a second thought but I am far from "normal"! Perhaps this will force me to be more healthy as I know I am paying money to get results. Maybe it is just the lazy part of me that wants to cancel!
Food-wise I did OK over the weekend....Mostly I ate fairly healthily but I did have Thai food on Saturday night and I had an icecream and some lollies yesterday. All in all it is better than I would usually do on a weekend. I weigh about 1.2kgs less than last Monday, so at least somehing is shifting.....even if I am not being perfect.
I watched this TV show last night about celebrities getting their "body back" after having babies. Man....I can't believe the lengths these people go to to lose weight! Although I think the extreme measures are really bad for you (soup diets, etc) I am envious of their willpower and dedication. They are just so tiny!!!!
Anyway, back to the "grind" for me.....
Miss Pinky
Friday 11 January 2008
Friday....and loving it!!!
I can't seem to write what these pics are near the pics so they are: my sister and I, J and I and my new hair
End of the week and still going pretty good. I have exercised 5 days so far this week….3 aerobics classes (video), 1 run on the treadmill and a 10km outdoor run this morning. What this week has shown me is how hideously unfit and overweight I am. My run this morning absolutely killed me and I was really slow too. When I finally made it home I was all shaky and did not feel well at all. I even considered calling an ambulance to haul my fat arse off to hospital (only kidding)!! So, I now have decided to join the “personal trainer” bandwagon and I have booked in to start with one on Tuesday. I will see him 2 times per week for about 3 months and hopefully he can help me out. It will cost me a bit of money but I honestly can’t put a price on what I would pay to not look and feel this way, so it will all be worth it.
Food-wise I have pretty much been “spot on” and I don’t feel as hungry as I usually do when I try to be “good”. Still craving biscuits and cake but I guess I won’t be able to kick the “carb monster” that easily!! All in all I am feeling rather proud of my efforts this week and I already feel less lethargic, which is always good!!
I am hoping I can control myself over the weekend
I picked up my glasses last night so today is their “debut” or “first outing”. They feel rather strange and my neck is sore. I am probably just not used to them yet but I must say that the world is less “hazy” than it has been!
My vegie garden is doing great at the moment and has sprouted it’s first tomato….although it’s about the size of a 5 cent piece! At least things are growing in there anyway!! I also have a possum that is visiting my backyard every night and I have been leaving fruit out for it to eat. J tells me that now it won’t remember how to find it’s own food. This is probably true but I now feel obliged to feed it. It’s very cute. Although one of my dogs spends all his time outside at night barking at it, so we have to try and limit his backyard access at night. If the possum decides to attack him, it will really do damage to him. I have heard they are very vicious.
Food-wise I have pretty much been “spot on” and I don’t feel as hungry as I usually do when I try to be “good”. Still craving biscuits and cake but I guess I won’t be able to kick the “carb monster” that easily!! All in all I am feeling rather proud of my efforts this week and I already feel less lethargic, which is always good!!
I am hoping I can control myself over the weekend
I picked up my glasses last night so today is their “debut” or “first outing”. They feel rather strange and my neck is sore. I am probably just not used to them yet but I must say that the world is less “hazy” than it has been!
My vegie garden is doing great at the moment and has sprouted it’s first tomato….although it’s about the size of a 5 cent piece! At least things are growing in there anyway!! I also have a possum that is visiting my backyard every night and I have been leaving fruit out for it to eat. J tells me that now it won’t remember how to find it’s own food. This is probably true but I now feel obliged to feed it. It’s very cute. Although one of my dogs spends all his time outside at night barking at it, so we have to try and limit his backyard access at night. If the possum decides to attack him, it will really do damage to him. I have heard they are very vicious.
My weekend plans do not consist of much at all….which I love! I can just spend the 2 days taking my dogs to the dog park, catching up on some housework and resting.
Have a great weekend guys!!
Miss Pinky
Have a great weekend guys!!
Miss Pinky
Monday 7 January 2008
Welcome 2008
Today is my first day back from my holidays and I am suffering from Mondayitis so I will provide this update in point form….
MELBOURNE – The 4 days went very quickly. The weather was nice apart from Christmas Eve, which was very cold and rainy. The weather was between 24 and 27 degrees, which was lovely. We managed to get out of there just before the 43 degree days hit, thankfully! Xmas Day was OK apart from the fact that J’s mother said about three sentences to J and I all day. I swear she loves her dog more than him and pays it more attention too. Needless to say, he was very upset and angry afterwards. She didn’t even ask him about his new job and she didn’t even say “thankyou” to us when she opened her present. J had to ask her if she liked it. Her rudeness makes me not give a sh*t that we have been to Melbourne a few times and not stayed with her.
J spent Boxing Day with his son, go-karting and shopping. He said they had a good day together. I hung around at the hotel and got some lunch at St Kilda. J’s Mum was meant to pick the son up afterwards and take him with her for a few weeks but when J called her to organise this she had gone home to the country instead. So J just dropped him back to Ballarat.
Melbourne held many culinary delights for myself, which I was happy about but the scales were not!
NEW YEARS – The quietest one I have ever had. J and I stayed home and had my Mum over for dinner and that was it!! We watched the fireworks on TV and ended up staying up until 4am watching silly game shows on TV. At least we didn’t have to try and find public transport in the City! Next year I will be sure to organise something more exciting in advance!
J – Things have been going really well. It was so nice to have some time to spend together during our leave. We didn’t do anything major…..Just went out for lunches and pottered around the house but it was nice. I need to make sure that I don’t get caught up in the “routine” now that I am back to work and forget to simply enjoy the simple moments. I must make an effort to do stuff during the week, like going to the movies or getting an ice cream after dinner. Small things like these will make the working week more bearable.
HEALTH – The results are in and the cause of my constant headaches is most probably due to the fact that I need glasses! I went for an eye test a week ago and it appears I have a stigmatism which means my eyes need to work hard all the time to focus. Hopefully once I pick up my glasses, my headaches will stop. It is amazing the difference it made when the optometrist put the prescription lenses on my eyes. I didn’t realise just how blind I was!!
FAT – The results are in and YES I am enormous! I ate like an elephant all holidays and did zero exercise so I deserve the massive number that greeted me on the scales this morning. As of this morning I have been good. I did an hour aerobics video this morning before work and so far I have eaten healthily today. I will do the video until I have built up a little bit of fitness and then I will tackle some running. I have a goal to lose at least 5kgs but hopefully closer to 10kgs in 3 months. 5kgs will have me looking “normal” again but 10kgs would be even better! I cannot get any bigger or I will die! Enough is enough!!!!
I hope everybody had a great break over Xmas and I hope we can all work hard to achieve our goals for 2008….Whatever they may be…..
Miss Pinky
MELBOURNE – The 4 days went very quickly. The weather was nice apart from Christmas Eve, which was very cold and rainy. The weather was between 24 and 27 degrees, which was lovely. We managed to get out of there just before the 43 degree days hit, thankfully! Xmas Day was OK apart from the fact that J’s mother said about three sentences to J and I all day. I swear she loves her dog more than him and pays it more attention too. Needless to say, he was very upset and angry afterwards. She didn’t even ask him about his new job and she didn’t even say “thankyou” to us when she opened her present. J had to ask her if she liked it. Her rudeness makes me not give a sh*t that we have been to Melbourne a few times and not stayed with her.
J spent Boxing Day with his son, go-karting and shopping. He said they had a good day together. I hung around at the hotel and got some lunch at St Kilda. J’s Mum was meant to pick the son up afterwards and take him with her for a few weeks but when J called her to organise this she had gone home to the country instead. So J just dropped him back to Ballarat.
Melbourne held many culinary delights for myself, which I was happy about but the scales were not!
NEW YEARS – The quietest one I have ever had. J and I stayed home and had my Mum over for dinner and that was it!! We watched the fireworks on TV and ended up staying up until 4am watching silly game shows on TV. At least we didn’t have to try and find public transport in the City! Next year I will be sure to organise something more exciting in advance!
J – Things have been going really well. It was so nice to have some time to spend together during our leave. We didn’t do anything major…..Just went out for lunches and pottered around the house but it was nice. I need to make sure that I don’t get caught up in the “routine” now that I am back to work and forget to simply enjoy the simple moments. I must make an effort to do stuff during the week, like going to the movies or getting an ice cream after dinner. Small things like these will make the working week more bearable.
HEALTH – The results are in and the cause of my constant headaches is most probably due to the fact that I need glasses! I went for an eye test a week ago and it appears I have a stigmatism which means my eyes need to work hard all the time to focus. Hopefully once I pick up my glasses, my headaches will stop. It is amazing the difference it made when the optometrist put the prescription lenses on my eyes. I didn’t realise just how blind I was!!
FAT – The results are in and YES I am enormous! I ate like an elephant all holidays and did zero exercise so I deserve the massive number that greeted me on the scales this morning. As of this morning I have been good. I did an hour aerobics video this morning before work and so far I have eaten healthily today. I will do the video until I have built up a little bit of fitness and then I will tackle some running. I have a goal to lose at least 5kgs but hopefully closer to 10kgs in 3 months. 5kgs will have me looking “normal” again but 10kgs would be even better! I cannot get any bigger or I will die! Enough is enough!!!!
I hope everybody had a great break over Xmas and I hope we can all work hard to achieve our goals for 2008….Whatever they may be…..
Miss Pinky
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