Day 2 is down and dusted and I completely stuck to my plan, except for one rice cake (22 calories).....Not bad!!! Boxing was good.....Quite fun actually. J and I did it together. We were both really sweaty by the end. Today my arms are a bit sore but still movable.
PLAN FOR TODAY:
Breakfast: Fruit salad
Morning tea: 15 rice crackers (number always depends on what ends up in my container)
Lunch: Pumpkin soup plus 1 slice grain bread
Afternoon tea: Half cup low fat yoghurt plus carrot/celery sticks
Dinner: Prawn curry with rice/vegies (weight watchers recipe)
Dessert: Lifesavers iceblock
Exercise: None.....Visiting my Mum in hospital straight after work. May just walk the dogs really late tonight but I don't count dog walking as exercise due to having to stop every 5 seconds for a "sniff"!!!
I am already feeling better about myself. Scales are still showing a 0.8kgs loss, which I am happy with. I need to stop the daily weighing but I am so addicted!!!
I ate so many vegetables yesterday that I thought I would turn into a carrot!! I must be so full of vitamins, which is awesome.
Miss Pinky.
Wednesday 31 October 2007
Tuesday 30 October 2007
One day down....A lifetime to go.....
Well I DID IT!!!!!! I stuck to my eating plan for a whole day and went to my Spin class last night. The only way I deviated from my plan is that I didn't have the fish and vegies for dinner....I had 2 slices of grain toast with vegemite instead. This was because the fish had become frozen in the fridge. Weird??
The Spin class was so full-on. I was sweating like an animal and pushed myself really hard. There was a girl next to me with a full head of make-up, complete with pretty hair and pretty clothes. At the end of the class her make-up was still fully intact and all she had was a sparkle of sweat on her brow. Sometimes I wonder why people like this even bother! Is it just so she can tell everyone she does Spin classes?? Or, perhaps I am just simply jealous because she had an awesome figure!! I guess....why push hard when you don't really have to?
J and I had a big argument last night, with him once again picking on my weight. Funny thing is that it didn't even upset me this time. Ordinarily I would head straight for some chocolate or junk food to "console" myself. This time though I thought "Yes I am carrying some extra kilos but I am now doing something about it and I will lose it.....for me!!". Each time he makes nasty comments towards me, it just chips away at our relationship and makes me really question why I am with someone that so negatively affects my self esteem. J used to be so lovely towards me but lately he is just cold and basically ignores me. I guess only time will tell if we stay together but my patience is wearing very thin. The only reason I stay with him is because I am scared to be alone....but in all honesty, I spend so much time alone now that I may as well be single.
My Mum goes into hospital for an operation tomorrow. She is having a hysterectomy. She thinks she should only be in hospital for one night but one doctor said it may be 5 nights. I hope it all goes OK for her. I will go and visit her tomorrow after work and take her some flowers. I feel sorry for my Mum....She has had a really tough life. Always made bad choices in men, struggled to bring up 3 kids as a single Mum and now she is 62 and has been single for years. I wonder if she gets lonely?? I worry what will happen if my sister ever leaves home.
Plan for today:
BREAKFAST: Fruit salad
MORNING TEA: 11 rice crackers
LUNCH: Grain roll with chicken and salad
AFTERNOON TEA: Carrot and celery sticks and a handful of nuts
DINNER: The fish I guess....with vegies
DESSERT: Lifesaver iceblock
EXERCISE: 1 hour Boxing class
Fingers crossed I can be "good" for another day!
Miss Pinky.
The Spin class was so full-on. I was sweating like an animal and pushed myself really hard. There was a girl next to me with a full head of make-up, complete with pretty hair and pretty clothes. At the end of the class her make-up was still fully intact and all she had was a sparkle of sweat on her brow. Sometimes I wonder why people like this even bother! Is it just so she can tell everyone she does Spin classes?? Or, perhaps I am just simply jealous because she had an awesome figure!! I guess....why push hard when you don't really have to?
J and I had a big argument last night, with him once again picking on my weight. Funny thing is that it didn't even upset me this time. Ordinarily I would head straight for some chocolate or junk food to "console" myself. This time though I thought "Yes I am carrying some extra kilos but I am now doing something about it and I will lose it.....for me!!". Each time he makes nasty comments towards me, it just chips away at our relationship and makes me really question why I am with someone that so negatively affects my self esteem. J used to be so lovely towards me but lately he is just cold and basically ignores me. I guess only time will tell if we stay together but my patience is wearing very thin. The only reason I stay with him is because I am scared to be alone....but in all honesty, I spend so much time alone now that I may as well be single.
My Mum goes into hospital for an operation tomorrow. She is having a hysterectomy. She thinks she should only be in hospital for one night but one doctor said it may be 5 nights. I hope it all goes OK for her. I will go and visit her tomorrow after work and take her some flowers. I feel sorry for my Mum....She has had a really tough life. Always made bad choices in men, struggled to bring up 3 kids as a single Mum and now she is 62 and has been single for years. I wonder if she gets lonely?? I worry what will happen if my sister ever leaves home.
Plan for today:
BREAKFAST: Fruit salad
MORNING TEA: 11 rice crackers
LUNCH: Grain roll with chicken and salad
AFTERNOON TEA: Carrot and celery sticks and a handful of nuts
DINNER: The fish I guess....with vegies
DESSERT: Lifesaver iceblock
EXERCISE: 1 hour Boxing class
Fingers crossed I can be "good" for another day!
Miss Pinky.
Monday 29 October 2007
Breaking out of this Funk
Today is the start of getting back to being healthy. I know I say this all the time but I absolutely NEED to do it this time. As difficult as I find it to resist junk food and do regular exercise, I find it even tougher to hate myself the way I do now. I think of how I have let myself go and it makes me feel sick!
When I initially set out on this weight loss journey about 2 and a half years ago, my goal was to get to 60kgs. The closest I ever got was 61.6kgs in early Dec last year. Today I weighed in at 68.2kgs!!! That is a gain of 6.6kgs! I have never ever mentioned my actual weight on here due to feeling ashamed but it is time I became accountable for my actions. I am sick of feeling unattractive, frumpy and tired! I am sick of my thighs rubbing together and I am sick of “wobbling”!!!!
I am at a point where I am close to being house bound because I am so scared I will go somewhere and see someone who last saw me in Dec and they will think “Oh my God….Hasn’t she let herself go?”. I worked REALLY HARD for this…..I hated exercising 5-6 times a week and I really missed chocolate, McDonalds, etc but it was worth it because I lost a lot of weight and felt a little bit “good” about myself. I felt proud of what I had nearly achieved and loved the comments people would make about my weight loss. Now, people say nothing because it is quite obvious I am not achieving anything other than a massive spare tyre!
From now on I will write down everything I eat and exercise at least 4 times a week. I planned on running this morning but at 5.30am it was still dark and, as such, I could not motivate myself. So I MUST go to a Spin class at the Gym tonight and tomorrow I will do a Boxing class. I will plan the rest of the week closer to the day.
My food today looks like this:
BREAKFAST: Bowl of fresh fruit with half cup low fat yoghurt
MORNING TEA: 12 wholegrain rice crackers
LUNCH: Multigrain roll with lean chicken and salad
DINNER: Grilled fish with vegies and lemon
DESSERT: Lifesavers ice block (Better than my usual big bowl of icecream)
OPTIONAL SNACK: Nuts (See how I feel later)
It is J’s work Christmas party in about 4 weeks. Remember that I used to work there until Jan this year??….. The last Xmas party, I was about 62kgs and people kept making comments about my weight loss. I felt awesome…..Even “attractive”!!! If I stick to my plan religiously for 4 weeks, I should be able to get to 64kgs. At least then, it won’t be a massively obvious difference that people will talk about…..At least I hope it won’t!!!!
An update on the 8km run the other weekend…..It was sooooooo hot and horrible but I finished a minute quicker than last year. I was actually not happy with this as I wanted to do a really bad time to prove to myself how much harder running is with excess baggage. I finished in 49 minutes, so just over 6 min kms.
As God as my witness, from today on I WILL break out of this “funk” I have been in and get on with the task of being kinder to my body.
Miss Pinky
When I initially set out on this weight loss journey about 2 and a half years ago, my goal was to get to 60kgs. The closest I ever got was 61.6kgs in early Dec last year. Today I weighed in at 68.2kgs!!! That is a gain of 6.6kgs! I have never ever mentioned my actual weight on here due to feeling ashamed but it is time I became accountable for my actions. I am sick of feeling unattractive, frumpy and tired! I am sick of my thighs rubbing together and I am sick of “wobbling”!!!!
I am at a point where I am close to being house bound because I am so scared I will go somewhere and see someone who last saw me in Dec and they will think “Oh my God….Hasn’t she let herself go?”. I worked REALLY HARD for this…..I hated exercising 5-6 times a week and I really missed chocolate, McDonalds, etc but it was worth it because I lost a lot of weight and felt a little bit “good” about myself. I felt proud of what I had nearly achieved and loved the comments people would make about my weight loss. Now, people say nothing because it is quite obvious I am not achieving anything other than a massive spare tyre!
From now on I will write down everything I eat and exercise at least 4 times a week. I planned on running this morning but at 5.30am it was still dark and, as such, I could not motivate myself. So I MUST go to a Spin class at the Gym tonight and tomorrow I will do a Boxing class. I will plan the rest of the week closer to the day.
My food today looks like this:
BREAKFAST: Bowl of fresh fruit with half cup low fat yoghurt
MORNING TEA: 12 wholegrain rice crackers
LUNCH: Multigrain roll with lean chicken and salad
DINNER: Grilled fish with vegies and lemon
DESSERT: Lifesavers ice block (Better than my usual big bowl of icecream)
OPTIONAL SNACK: Nuts (See how I feel later)
It is J’s work Christmas party in about 4 weeks. Remember that I used to work there until Jan this year??….. The last Xmas party, I was about 62kgs and people kept making comments about my weight loss. I felt awesome…..Even “attractive”!!! If I stick to my plan religiously for 4 weeks, I should be able to get to 64kgs. At least then, it won’t be a massively obvious difference that people will talk about…..At least I hope it won’t!!!!
An update on the 8km run the other weekend…..It was sooooooo hot and horrible but I finished a minute quicker than last year. I was actually not happy with this as I wanted to do a really bad time to prove to myself how much harder running is with excess baggage. I finished in 49 minutes, so just over 6 min kms.
As God as my witness, from today on I WILL break out of this “funk” I have been in and get on with the task of being kinder to my body.
Miss Pinky
Friday 12 October 2007
The Weight Dilemma
I am not feeling the best today….For some reason I have developed a stomach ache and I feel very tired. Probably my body trying to tell me it is sick of all the junk food and it wants to get healthy again!! Although nothing seems to be able motivate me at the moment. I ran on Monday and Wednesday, 8kms each time and with some hills on Wednesday also. The runs were so hard because of this extra weight I am carrying and also because I have been so inconsistent with my running for the past few months. I hate feeling so unfit but obviously my love for high calorie food is stronger than my desire to lose weight……or else I would do something about it!
So many of my clothes are tight on me at the moment, so I just don’t wear them. I stick to the clothes that are loose and don’t make me feel uncomfortable. I tried to wear a pair of pants to work today but they felt so awful that I changed into a big baggy skirt instead. Mind you, these pants were so loose 2 years ago, that I considered throwing them out. Even my bras are now tight on me and dig in.
Where has my motivation gone and why on earth am I letting all my hard work go to waste? I am hating myself so much at the moment for my lack of self control. It is just disgusting! I also have my 8km run on Sunday, which will kill me due to my lack of fitness. Rather than just talking about joining Jenny Craig again, I think I need to “bite the bullet” and do it! If I could lose a few kilos I would feel so much better. Unfortunately, at the moment, when I have a choice as to which foods I eat, I choose the stuff I shouldn’t be eating and my serves are just too big.
I need to set out a food and exercise plan and actually stick to it!!
Enjoy your weekend and please return my motivation if you find it!
Miss Pinky.
So many of my clothes are tight on me at the moment, so I just don’t wear them. I stick to the clothes that are loose and don’t make me feel uncomfortable. I tried to wear a pair of pants to work today but they felt so awful that I changed into a big baggy skirt instead. Mind you, these pants were so loose 2 years ago, that I considered throwing them out. Even my bras are now tight on me and dig in.
Where has my motivation gone and why on earth am I letting all my hard work go to waste? I am hating myself so much at the moment for my lack of self control. It is just disgusting! I also have my 8km run on Sunday, which will kill me due to my lack of fitness. Rather than just talking about joining Jenny Craig again, I think I need to “bite the bullet” and do it! If I could lose a few kilos I would feel so much better. Unfortunately, at the moment, when I have a choice as to which foods I eat, I choose the stuff I shouldn’t be eating and my serves are just too big.
I need to set out a food and exercise plan and actually stick to it!!
Enjoy your weekend and please return my motivation if you find it!
Miss Pinky.
Wednesday 3 October 2007
Sydney Half Marathon Update
Welcome to my very overdue post on the Sydney half marathon!!! It was the least painful long run I have ever done. The weather was very cool…..even “cold” at the start and the course was just perfect……very flat with only a few short inclines. I just kept on making sure that I reached each kilometre marker within 7 minutes, or better. At the 5km mark, I had a big drink of water and got a bad stitch, which I thought was going to force me to stop but I pushed through it and by 7km it was gone. The run was so scenic and it was awesome watching the half marathon leaders running back past me.
At the 16km mark I was expecting my lower back pain to kick in but it never came. I was so happy to not be hurting. At the 19km mark I had to stop and stretch for about 30 seconds but that was my only stop of the whole run. I came in at 2hrs 15 minutes, which is 12 minutes better than my Bankstown half time. I was so happy with myself, although I was upset J had not watched me come through the finish line. J finished in 99 minutes so he was very impressed with his time.
After the run, I did not even have to rest all day as I wasn’t feeling sore or sick, which was great. We stayed around to watch the Marathon runners come in. What absolute legends those people are!!!!! The winner won by about 8 minutes!!!! “One day” I will attempt a marathon!!
My next run is an 8km run near my Mum’s house. It is a pretty cool course but a little hilly. I did a time of 50 minutes last year, which is a good time for me. I am not sure if I will do this again this year as I am carrying a bit of extra “padding” and I am running less regularly now. After this, I will do the Central Coast half marathon in Dec, as this is meant to be a very flat course and I just love flat!!!!
The hotel that we stayed in at St Leonards was so nice and modern. It had a plasma TV, beautiful king bed, Aveda toiletries and a fantastic shower. The Gym there was just like a mini Fitness First Gym (same equipment)…..not that I used it though! The hotel also had a regular checkout time of 12pm, which is so generous. This meant we got to go back to the hotel after the race and have a nice shower before heading home.
I was so impressed by this hotel that J and I are staying there again this Saturday night for his birthday. I think we will have a nice picnic on Saturday, then check into the hotel and go out for dinner and drinks. It will just be the two of us, which will be nice. I love hotels!!! J already has his birthday present from me. I got him a Polar running watch. I notice he wears it every day but I don’t think he has calibrated it properly yet to work out his stats.
J has gone away on a work conference today, which means I am alone for 2 nights. I am going to stay at my Mum’s as I get freaked out in the big old house by myself and it will give me a chance to spend a bit of time with my Mum and sister. I can also run around her house, which is my favourite place to run.
Work is still good but has been very busy. I spent a few hours over the weekend catching up on work, which was not good but it was basically my own fault for taking it easy throughout the month. At least I have “learnt my lesson” for next time!
Food is going very, very bad. All I do is eat junk and heaps of it! Hopefully now that the weather is getting warmer I will ease back a bit. I really want to join Jenny Craig for a few months but I honestly can’t afford it at the moment. J and I are going to Bali for Christmas and need to save for this. I am so psyched to go away!!!! I love being in warm places and just shopping and eating and doing whatever I like…..Bliss!!!!
Till Next Time
Miss Pinky
At the 16km mark I was expecting my lower back pain to kick in but it never came. I was so happy to not be hurting. At the 19km mark I had to stop and stretch for about 30 seconds but that was my only stop of the whole run. I came in at 2hrs 15 minutes, which is 12 minutes better than my Bankstown half time. I was so happy with myself, although I was upset J had not watched me come through the finish line. J finished in 99 minutes so he was very impressed with his time.
After the run, I did not even have to rest all day as I wasn’t feeling sore or sick, which was great. We stayed around to watch the Marathon runners come in. What absolute legends those people are!!!!! The winner won by about 8 minutes!!!! “One day” I will attempt a marathon!!
My next run is an 8km run near my Mum’s house. It is a pretty cool course but a little hilly. I did a time of 50 minutes last year, which is a good time for me. I am not sure if I will do this again this year as I am carrying a bit of extra “padding” and I am running less regularly now. After this, I will do the Central Coast half marathon in Dec, as this is meant to be a very flat course and I just love flat!!!!
The hotel that we stayed in at St Leonards was so nice and modern. It had a plasma TV, beautiful king bed, Aveda toiletries and a fantastic shower. The Gym there was just like a mini Fitness First Gym (same equipment)…..not that I used it though! The hotel also had a regular checkout time of 12pm, which is so generous. This meant we got to go back to the hotel after the race and have a nice shower before heading home.
I was so impressed by this hotel that J and I are staying there again this Saturday night for his birthday. I think we will have a nice picnic on Saturday, then check into the hotel and go out for dinner and drinks. It will just be the two of us, which will be nice. I love hotels!!! J already has his birthday present from me. I got him a Polar running watch. I notice he wears it every day but I don’t think he has calibrated it properly yet to work out his stats.
J has gone away on a work conference today, which means I am alone for 2 nights. I am going to stay at my Mum’s as I get freaked out in the big old house by myself and it will give me a chance to spend a bit of time with my Mum and sister. I can also run around her house, which is my favourite place to run.
Work is still good but has been very busy. I spent a few hours over the weekend catching up on work, which was not good but it was basically my own fault for taking it easy throughout the month. At least I have “learnt my lesson” for next time!
Food is going very, very bad. All I do is eat junk and heaps of it! Hopefully now that the weather is getting warmer I will ease back a bit. I really want to join Jenny Craig for a few months but I honestly can’t afford it at the moment. J and I are going to Bali for Christmas and need to save for this. I am so psyched to go away!!!! I love being in warm places and just shopping and eating and doing whatever I like…..Bliss!!!!
Till Next Time
Miss Pinky
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