Last day of work today before 2 weeks holidays…..yay!!!!! I am sooooooo bored at the moment it is just not funny. At least I only have 2 hours to kill anyway. I can’t wait for 4pm!!!!!!! I am hanging out for some time to myself to do whatever I want to do.
This afternoon I am getting my hair done and then I will take the dogs to the dog park. Then I need to get stuck into some cleaning before our BBQ tomorrow. Me-thinks it was a stupid idea having people over so close to Xmas!! Oh well…..it is all organised now…….
I have to go to the local Christmas Carols near my Mum’s house on Sunday night now. Initially I thought my brother and his family could come and that could be our “Xmas get together” but he tells me he is too busy “preparing for Xmas” to come. I will not be able to stay for too long because I need to spend some time with the dogs before we go away.
Monday morning we head off to Melbourne on a 6am flight. It looks like the Melbourne weather will be much better than Sydney…..so at least that is one bonus! J and I will basically spend Xmas Eve alone doing our own thing, which will be lovely. Xmas Day will be with his family and it looks as though Boxing Day will be spent by myself looking around the City while J spends the day with his son. No, I am not a mean and horrible bitch for not going with him. It is a long story but the basic jist of it is that J has a 14 year old son who he barely has any contact at all with. This is not the mother’s fault…..It is J’s fault. He has not put any effort in to create any sort of relationship. As such, when they are together it is very uncomfortable and awkward so I thought it would be best if they have the day alone and I do my own thing. I think I just add to the uncomfortableness when I am there. For the record, J does pay a fair bit of child support but, besides this and a few phone calls each year, he doesn’t do much else. The last day of the “holiday” will hopefully be spent alone with J……fingers crossed!
We get back to Sydney on the 28th Dec and I then have about 10 days before returning to work…..BLISS!!!! J goes back a few days earlier but that is OK.
Unfortunately my fat body will be accompanying me to Melbourne. I have dismally failed in my vague “plan” to lose weight……More like a pipe dream than a plan!! I bought a new dress yesterday, which was a size bigger than I usually take (They didn’t have my size in stock). It is really cute but a little big. What annoys me is that this should be absolutely swimming on me!!! It should be so loose that I can’t wear it. Oh well….It is not as though his family are supermodels anyway! My “Christmas eating” started off with a “bang” this morning……strawberry milk and chocolate for breakfast. Now I just feel sick. Funny thing is that when I am trying to eat healthily, I could eat 24 hours a day. When I am eating whatever I want, I don’t eat many times during the day but they are mostly foods that are not exactly diet friendly. I must get back into running after the new year….If only to keep myself sane!
Quick update on my many illnesses: I now have a cold, believe it or not! I seem to go from one sickness to the other! I may as well be 100 years old. I was speaking to a painter that was doing work at my house the other day. He was saying he is 47 years old, does no exercise, smokes, drinks like a fish, gets about 5 hours sleep a night and feels awesome. I am 30 years old, have never had a cigarette in my life, do not drink alcohol, take vitamins, get at least 7 hours sleep every night, do some form of exercise each day (even if it is only walking), eat fruit and vegetables every day (even if it is mixed in with more than my fair share of chocolate and biscuits) and I feel TERRIBLE!!!!!! I can’t believe all my tests from hospital the other week were perfect??? Maybe I should take up drinking and smoking???!!!!
Anyway I better go and “look busy” for a little while longer. Although every single thing is completely up-to-date.
Have an excellent Xmas with your families and stay safe.
Miss Pinky
Friday 21 December 2007
Tuesday 18 December 2007
Xmas Countdown
Only one week to go until Xmas.....How exciting!!! Exciting for you guys....Not so exciting for me who has to go to Melbourne and hang out with people who obviously do not like me! Enough of that as there is nothing I can do about it......Just need to "grin and bear it" for a day or two. On the upside, at least I will be able to relax in the hotel room and I don't have to do any cleaning or house stuff for a few days!
I have all my Xmas shopping finished. I ended up going halves with J in this beautiful watch he wanted. He seems impressed so that is the main thing. He got me these lovely earrings I wanted and there are some other pressies under the tree. The shops are so crowded in my area at the moment. If you don't arrive before the shops open, you won't find a park at all. Luckily I live within walking distance so it is not a major deal for me.....That is, unless I decide to buy bags of cement or a BBQ or something!
Speaking of BBQ's.....I am having a few people over this Saturday for a Xmas BBQ. We are having turkey on the BBQ and some other tasty goodies. It should be nice! Although this does mean I have to do much cleaning this week to get ready. I am very fussy about having a clean house and would die if people saw it dirty. Not that it is "dirty"....I just need to do some dusting and scrub the bathrooms.
I finish at work on Friday and have 2 weeks leave which I am HANGING out for!!!! Although I still have to be "on call" for customers and spend about a day doing end of month processing. At least it is from home though, which is much better than being in the office. I wish I had someone to cover properly for me at work so I could have a proper break but the elderly man who is my "cover" would have no clue how to issue invoices, pay invoices, etc. He is rather computer illiterate. By the time I showed him what to do, I may as well do it myself.
My dogs have gone mad I think.....Jack is the nice one who is very soft and gentle. Well, not last night!!!! We went to the dog park and a staffie put her paws up on my leg and Jack attacked her. It was full-on and he gave no warning of what he was about to do. I was so embarrassed! I am just really lucky that the staffie didn't bite him hard or he could have been killed. In the end there was no blood so that is always a good sign. He has had a couple of fights lately. This worries me because he is normally so placid! Max is the psycho one and I understand that because he was so badly abused before we got him. Jack has had the most "cushy" life possible and has no reason to be aggressive. He also killed a bird on Friday night, which was disgusting. I found it on Saturday morning and screamed my head off. I have no idea how he managed to catch it??? The trials and tribulations of dog ownership, hey?! Sometimes I wonder if kids would be easier.....Then again, I certainly couldn't leave kids home alone with a bone while I went to work!!
Diet has been fairly bad and exercise non-existent. I basically just eat when I feel like it. I have been sick lately, with dizziness, headaches and migraines. I was at the Gym last Wednesday night and half-way through a Body Attack class I got a migraine and had to leave. The migraine was accompanied by tingling arms and feet so I got J to take me to hospital because I thought I was having a stroke. Brain scans and blood tests were all clear so I am not sure what is wrong with me?? Needless to say, I am scared to be at the Gym when I am so dizzy. It is probably not a great idea. Or perhaps this is my "excuse" and I am just plain lazy??? I will see how I am feeling after Xmas anyway......Maybe some rest will be good for me.
Well it is time for me to resume my net surfing now. Work is very quiet at the moment because everyone has wound down for Xmas already. A big "hello" to Tiny Donna!!!! I hope you are recovering well and enjoying the shopping!!!
Over and Out
Miss Pinky
I have all my Xmas shopping finished. I ended up going halves with J in this beautiful watch he wanted. He seems impressed so that is the main thing. He got me these lovely earrings I wanted and there are some other pressies under the tree. The shops are so crowded in my area at the moment. If you don't arrive before the shops open, you won't find a park at all. Luckily I live within walking distance so it is not a major deal for me.....That is, unless I decide to buy bags of cement or a BBQ or something!
Speaking of BBQ's.....I am having a few people over this Saturday for a Xmas BBQ. We are having turkey on the BBQ and some other tasty goodies. It should be nice! Although this does mean I have to do much cleaning this week to get ready. I am very fussy about having a clean house and would die if people saw it dirty. Not that it is "dirty"....I just need to do some dusting and scrub the bathrooms.
I finish at work on Friday and have 2 weeks leave which I am HANGING out for!!!! Although I still have to be "on call" for customers and spend about a day doing end of month processing. At least it is from home though, which is much better than being in the office. I wish I had someone to cover properly for me at work so I could have a proper break but the elderly man who is my "cover" would have no clue how to issue invoices, pay invoices, etc. He is rather computer illiterate. By the time I showed him what to do, I may as well do it myself.
My dogs have gone mad I think.....Jack is the nice one who is very soft and gentle. Well, not last night!!!! We went to the dog park and a staffie put her paws up on my leg and Jack attacked her. It was full-on and he gave no warning of what he was about to do. I was so embarrassed! I am just really lucky that the staffie didn't bite him hard or he could have been killed. In the end there was no blood so that is always a good sign. He has had a couple of fights lately. This worries me because he is normally so placid! Max is the psycho one and I understand that because he was so badly abused before we got him. Jack has had the most "cushy" life possible and has no reason to be aggressive. He also killed a bird on Friday night, which was disgusting. I found it on Saturday morning and screamed my head off. I have no idea how he managed to catch it??? The trials and tribulations of dog ownership, hey?! Sometimes I wonder if kids would be easier.....Then again, I certainly couldn't leave kids home alone with a bone while I went to work!!
Diet has been fairly bad and exercise non-existent. I basically just eat when I feel like it. I have been sick lately, with dizziness, headaches and migraines. I was at the Gym last Wednesday night and half-way through a Body Attack class I got a migraine and had to leave. The migraine was accompanied by tingling arms and feet so I got J to take me to hospital because I thought I was having a stroke. Brain scans and blood tests were all clear so I am not sure what is wrong with me?? Needless to say, I am scared to be at the Gym when I am so dizzy. It is probably not a great idea. Or perhaps this is my "excuse" and I am just plain lazy??? I will see how I am feeling after Xmas anyway......Maybe some rest will be good for me.
Well it is time for me to resume my net surfing now. Work is very quiet at the moment because everyone has wound down for Xmas already. A big "hello" to Tiny Donna!!!! I hope you are recovering well and enjoying the shopping!!!
Over and Out
Miss Pinky
Monday 10 December 2007
Starting to feel better
For some reason I am now feeling much better than I was last week. Not that I am complaining!! I am so happy to be out of that sad and "cloudy" period......at least for the time being anyway! Thanks to everybody for their nice comments and for providing some advice on how to get the "black dog" off my back!
I had a good weekend.....J and I planted a vegetable garden in our backyard. This is something we have talked about for ages but have never actually completed so on Saturday afternoon this "mission" was accomplished. It is so cute! We have lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, spring onions, pumpkin, carrots, strawberries, basil and chillies. Of course they are only "tiny" at the moment but I have faith in them! It is actually alot of fun to water them each night and to check out if there has been any progress. I hope they grow and don't just die....It will be nice to eat a salad that you literally "grew" yourself!
On Saturday night we got some Chinese takeaway and a bottle of wine. Yes....that is correct!! This "non-drinker" has found a wine she likes!!! I have never, ever liked alcohol at all but I discovered a wine called "Cienna". It is a red dessert wine by Brown Brothers.....$13 a bottle and it is really nice. It tastes like lollies. Perhaps this is because it is only 5% alcohol. After one glass I felt really "whoozy".....I guess 30 years of being sober does not make for a big drinker hey!?
Sunday was spent browsing a local market in my area and at Kurnell with my dogs. I found what I believe to be a small stingray on the beach at Kurnell. It was still alive but was wriggling around on the sand as though it had been caught unawares when the tide went out. So, I used my thongs to pick it up and put it back in the water. The whole time I had images of a barb coming out and stabbing me in the chest....like what happened to Steve Irwin. I was happy I may have played a part in saving this stingray/fish creature. I am actually fearless when it comes to helping animals.....I would do absolutely anything to try and save one.
Believe it or not folks, this morning I actually ventured to the Gym!!! Thanks to "BluesBuffet" for the tip! ;-) I did 45mins running on the treadmill at 10km/hr (incline zero). It was horrible but great to finish and get out of there at 7am with a workout completed. J came with me too, which was nice....even though he was in the weights section which is nowhere near the cardio stuff. I will have to get to the Gym at least 4 times a week because I am definitely heading to Melbourne for Xmas and I am soooooooo embarrassed for J's family to see me with this extra weight. So, I am thinking I can lose 2kgs by Xmas fairly easily if I stay away from the junk food and do some exercise. At least an extra 2-3 kilos won't look as bad as 4-6 will.
The funny thing is with me that I can put on 2kgs and it looks like 10! I think it's because I am so short that any gain is really obvious on me. 2kgs can mean that clothes become so tight on me and a 2kg loss can have them "swimming" on me. It is unfortunate that when you are short you have to be so much stricter with maintaining your weight.
Till next time
Miss Pinky
I had a good weekend.....J and I planted a vegetable garden in our backyard. This is something we have talked about for ages but have never actually completed so on Saturday afternoon this "mission" was accomplished. It is so cute! We have lettuce, tomatoes, cucumber, spring onions, pumpkin, carrots, strawberries, basil and chillies. Of course they are only "tiny" at the moment but I have faith in them! It is actually alot of fun to water them each night and to check out if there has been any progress. I hope they grow and don't just die....It will be nice to eat a salad that you literally "grew" yourself!
On Saturday night we got some Chinese takeaway and a bottle of wine. Yes....that is correct!! This "non-drinker" has found a wine she likes!!! I have never, ever liked alcohol at all but I discovered a wine called "Cienna". It is a red dessert wine by Brown Brothers.....$13 a bottle and it is really nice. It tastes like lollies. Perhaps this is because it is only 5% alcohol. After one glass I felt really "whoozy".....I guess 30 years of being sober does not make for a big drinker hey!?
Sunday was spent browsing a local market in my area and at Kurnell with my dogs. I found what I believe to be a small stingray on the beach at Kurnell. It was still alive but was wriggling around on the sand as though it had been caught unawares when the tide went out. So, I used my thongs to pick it up and put it back in the water. The whole time I had images of a barb coming out and stabbing me in the chest....like what happened to Steve Irwin. I was happy I may have played a part in saving this stingray/fish creature. I am actually fearless when it comes to helping animals.....I would do absolutely anything to try and save one.
Believe it or not folks, this morning I actually ventured to the Gym!!! Thanks to "BluesBuffet" for the tip! ;-) I did 45mins running on the treadmill at 10km/hr (incline zero). It was horrible but great to finish and get out of there at 7am with a workout completed. J came with me too, which was nice....even though he was in the weights section which is nowhere near the cardio stuff. I will have to get to the Gym at least 4 times a week because I am definitely heading to Melbourne for Xmas and I am soooooooo embarrassed for J's family to see me with this extra weight. So, I am thinking I can lose 2kgs by Xmas fairly easily if I stay away from the junk food and do some exercise. At least an extra 2-3 kilos won't look as bad as 4-6 will.
The funny thing is with me that I can put on 2kgs and it looks like 10! I think it's because I am so short that any gain is really obvious on me. 2kgs can mean that clothes become so tight on me and a 2kg loss can have them "swimming" on me. It is unfortunate that when you are short you have to be so much stricter with maintaining your weight.
Till next time
Miss Pinky
Wednesday 5 December 2007
M.I.A
I have been missing in action for a while now. What have I been up to?? Eating and feeling very flat....and fat! I am in the biggest funk ever right now.....I just can't seem to pull myself together. What is wrong with me???!!!!! I say I hate being this weight but then I can only be good for 2 weeks at the most before eating everything in sight.....so obviously the junk food and the laziness is more important to me than losing weight.
This sounds really slack but I am going through a really tough time emotionally right now and I feel I need to concentrate on feeling happy (or at the very least not being miserable every waking hour) more so than concentrating on what I am eating and what exercise I am doing. Funny thing is that if I did some exercise I would probably feel 100% better but even that will not motivate my lazy arse to move!
Although I am feeling rather miserable right now, I am still excited for Xmas! I have no idea what I am doing or even which state I will be in ("state" as in location, not mental state) but I am still feeling happy about the whole thing. I have 2 weeks off work and I am hoping the break can clear some of these cobwebs from my frazzled head. I feel like such a loser right now. I hate when I can't get my shit together and just aimlessly ponder on things that upset me.
Yes folks....I am wallowing in self pity and sometimes this just feels like the right thing for me to do!
I had J's work Xmas party the other week. It was at a lovely restaurant at King St Wharf, overlooking the water. Beautiful food too. Only issue was I got a migraine just after the main course. Nobody had any nurofen (including silly me who never leaves home without it) so J had to go and buy some for me. I then had to sit outside for half an hour with my head down in my hands.....I am sure passers-by thought I was pissed! My migraines affect my vision so I need to close my eyes to get rid of them. After a while I felt OK (could see again) but was a bit tired from it all. I hate migraines!!! I managed to squeeze myself into the little red dress that I was supposed to weigh a few kilos less to wear. It still looked OK. I also got a few nice compliments on my new hairstyle, which is always nice. The night ended with a typical fight with J and so the saga continues....I won't bore you with the details as I am too embarrassed to admit how bad my relationship really is and the fact that I am still in this relationship will make me sound mentally unstable!
Anyway....I better get going and have some lunch.....Beef curry with rice....Yummo!!!! My hips are just hanging out to get even wider!
I notice today that Tiny Donna's blog has become "by invitation only". This distresses me as browsing Donna's blog fills a massive part of my working day. If anybody can tell me how to get my hands on one of these invitations, I would be most impressed......almost "happy" perhaps!
Miss Pinky
This sounds really slack but I am going through a really tough time emotionally right now and I feel I need to concentrate on feeling happy (or at the very least not being miserable every waking hour) more so than concentrating on what I am eating and what exercise I am doing. Funny thing is that if I did some exercise I would probably feel 100% better but even that will not motivate my lazy arse to move!
Although I am feeling rather miserable right now, I am still excited for Xmas! I have no idea what I am doing or even which state I will be in ("state" as in location, not mental state) but I am still feeling happy about the whole thing. I have 2 weeks off work and I am hoping the break can clear some of these cobwebs from my frazzled head. I feel like such a loser right now. I hate when I can't get my shit together and just aimlessly ponder on things that upset me.
Yes folks....I am wallowing in self pity and sometimes this just feels like the right thing for me to do!
I had J's work Xmas party the other week. It was at a lovely restaurant at King St Wharf, overlooking the water. Beautiful food too. Only issue was I got a migraine just after the main course. Nobody had any nurofen (including silly me who never leaves home without it) so J had to go and buy some for me. I then had to sit outside for half an hour with my head down in my hands.....I am sure passers-by thought I was pissed! My migraines affect my vision so I need to close my eyes to get rid of them. After a while I felt OK (could see again) but was a bit tired from it all. I hate migraines!!! I managed to squeeze myself into the little red dress that I was supposed to weigh a few kilos less to wear. It still looked OK. I also got a few nice compliments on my new hairstyle, which is always nice. The night ended with a typical fight with J and so the saga continues....I won't bore you with the details as I am too embarrassed to admit how bad my relationship really is and the fact that I am still in this relationship will make me sound mentally unstable!
Anyway....I better get going and have some lunch.....Beef curry with rice....Yummo!!!! My hips are just hanging out to get even wider!
I notice today that Tiny Donna's blog has become "by invitation only". This distresses me as browsing Donna's blog fills a massive part of my working day. If anybody can tell me how to get my hands on one of these invitations, I would be most impressed......almost "happy" perhaps!
Miss Pinky
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