Saying "Goodbye" to my Twenties

It is my 30th birthday tomorrow so today is the last day of my “twenties”. I clearly remember turning 20 and thinking so many major milestones would happen during that decade. I thought I would get married, have kids, buy a house. It was actually a very stressful time for me, signalling the end of my youth….or so I thought! The only thing I managed to do in my 20’s was to get married….and separated soon after! I don’t feel I have achieved very much in the last ten years. I wonder what the next 10 will hold for me?? I guess it is up to me to make things happen. I am the only one who has the power to map out my own destiny.

Last night J told me to “pack an overnight bag”. He won’t tell me where we are going but obviously I am off somewhere for the night. He is picking me up after work and we leave straight away. That is so thoughtful of him! I knew something was “up” but I actually thought that perhaps he was having a big surprise party for me, which I was dreading!!! I hope we are staying in a hotel tonight as I would love to relax! I guess we are, as where else would we be staying? The dogs have gone to my Mum’s….he organised this all without me knowing.

It is his birthday in a few weeks. I know what present I am getting him, which I know he will love (I won’t write it just in case he reads this) but now I am trying to think of something exciting to do. I will never be able to beat what he has done as I can’t afford a night away, as well as his present.

Unfortunately I have not been feeling the best for the last few days…..a yucky head cold. Also, I went to the Gym on Monday night and did this really hard class with lots of situps and pushups and I have been aching all over ever since. I have really hurt my back and I am so worried about how this will affect my half marathon next Sunday! I have gone back to bad eating and no exercise too, so I am totally and completely unfit. I just hope I can finish.

My sister was fired from her job yesterday. Sounds like her Boss is a horrible weak ar**hole who did not even give her a warning or anything. He just called her in at the start of the day and said “It’s not really working out….You aren’t doing all the filing”. She is only 19 and has only ever worked for 7 months of her whole life. She is not the sharpest tool in the shed but she is very sweet. He told her she could either resign or he would fire her, so she resigned. She said she did not cry until she got in her car, which is so strong of her!

I feel really sorry for her as her work was having a dinner tomorrow night and she was really looking forward to it…..It was her first ever work function. He could have told her she could still go to that….but he didn’t. I sent her a bouquet of balloons yesterday to try and cheer her up. I think she should try something like hairdressing, which is predominantly a manual skill job. I think she would do well at something like this, as she likes fashion/hairstyles, etc and is great at talking to strangers. Fingers crossed that she finds something soon!

Leah…..if you read this…..I am very proud of you. I don’t often tell you this but I do love you and would protect you no matter what the circumstances were. You are such a sweet and silly girl, with a heart of gold. The way you got over your past “issues” shows how courageous and strong you are. Stop feeling the need to follow the paths of others and find your own way in this world. I have faith that you will one day find exactly where you fit in and be happy with yourself. Just know that no matter what happens, I will always be waiting to “help you pick up the pieces”. I know you don’t tell me everything that goes on with you but know that I want to hear all of this. You can call me for help at any time of the day or night and I will come. I see a lot of me in you and have probably been through most of the stuff you are going through. You are a little champion Leah and don’t ever underestimate what you can achieve!! :-)

Well I better go and finish up my work before I am picked up for my weekend away….YAY!!!!!

Take Care
Miss Pinky